kamia fora skeftomai ti skeftomai kai einai asteio h k trello

I am bipolar

Den exei kamia shmasia...

...mmm..arxika ekshgw ton titlo...o opoios dn yparxei!dn exei kamia shmasia na valw kapoion titlo p.x oneira,filia ktl gt etsi aisthanomai oti kateythynw thn skepsh m alla k oswn tha endiaferthoun na diavasoun..etsi to antilamvanomai egw...isws allh mia ptyxh ths ''allokoths'' skepshs m...

..ouuff kati egrapsa gia arxh!einai toso dyskolo na ekfraseis me lekseis ola auta pou mporei na strovilizontai mesa sto myalo s..oi idees moiazoun me fylla...alla kseramena,etoima gia aposynthesh (palies skepseis,idees,provlhmatismoi) k alla etoima na vgoun twra sto dentro pou onomazetai mualo (nees skepseis ktl)...k ksafnika fysaei..k skorpane..xanontai..ta psaxneis...tha dialeksw loipon sth tyxh merika ap' auta ta fyllarakia k tha prospa8hsw na ta parousiasw m' enan katanohto tropo...an yparxei...

..gia kapoio logo auth th stigmh sto myalo m einai kollhmenh h leksh oneira...xa ti leksh k auth!!polu prospa8hsan na ta ekshghsoun,na ta orisoun,na riksoun ligo fws sto kataskoteino peplo pou ta synodeuei...me th leksh oneira dn thelw na meinw mono sta oneira pou mporeis na deis kata th diarkeia tou ypnou..auta ta perierga dld kataskeuasmata ths psyxhs pou erxontai k feygoun to idio magika k anekshghta...alla thelw na symperilavw k ta oneira ws filodoksies,ta oneira pou PREPEI na exei o kathenas gia thn zwh t...mia mikrografia tou mellontos dld...dystyxws omws toso ypokeimenikh..panta tha yparxei kati ekei eksw pou tha empodisei auta ta oneira,tha ta gkremisei..eite thelontas to eite oxi...dn exei shmasia omws..tosa symvainoun..skopos einai na shkwnesai pali,na kseskonizeis ta rouxa s,na shkwneis pshla to kefali k na koitas mprosta,na koitas ton hlio,na koitas ton ourano...mm ton ourano..tha mporousa na kathomai gia wres me to vlemma karfwmeno s' auton k na taksideuw sto saghneutiko tou galazio..xwris na skeftomai kati sugkekrimeno..apla xazeuontas..synodeuomenos apo ena anekshghto synais8hma euforias..I know,perierges stigmes m..epistrefw ksana..na shkwnesai loipon k na synexizeis..dyskolo to kserw alla etsi prepei na ginetai..tpt dn xanetai logw mias atyxhs stigmhs..k an xanetai panta erxetai kati allo..mn stamatas loipon pote...yparxoun tosoi dromoi mprosta...akindynoi... epikindynoi...skoteinoi...pote dn ksereis poion tha epilekseis..h' mallon..vlakeies lew...pote dn MPOREIS na ksereis..dn einai thema epiloghs..merika pragmata erxontai etsi..xwris na ta dialegeis..eite sta fortwnoun alloi..eite ta dialegeis esy k telika se odhgoun allou..oxi ekei pou arxikws fantazosoun...ahh nomizw mperdeuthka k sas mperdepsa...alla m aresei auto gt o kathenas mporei na vgalei ta dika t symperasmata..gia ta oneira-kryfes filodoksies gia thn wra dn tha pw kati perissotero..sigoura omws tha epanelthw...

Prin ftasw sto telos auths ths maxhs me tis skepseis m..(pali dn vghka nikhths,pali dn phra apanthseis..pou na me kaluptoun toulaxiston :-/ ) tha pw allh mia leskh kleidi...FILIA...an oxi to kalytero..isws ena apo ta kalytera opla pou exeis sth faretra s sto pedio ths maxhs pou onomazetai zwh...filoi,files...atoma pou einai etoima na se sthriksoun,na sou poun thn kouventa pou toso polu anazhtas k pou tha se lytrwsei..atoma me idiaitera xarismata k as epimenoun pws dn aksizoun k bla bla bla...k omws aksizoun k aksizoun para polla..k as mn to vlepoun..to vlepw egw,to ektimw egw,to katalavainw egw...makari na mporousa na eixa ena..xmm..ravdaki!!..gia na tous kanw na to doun,na to ektimhsoun k na to katalavoun k autoi..opws to kanw egw..mesa apo ta dika m matia...to ligotero pou mporeis na kaneis gi' auta t' atoma einai na statheis k esy dipla tous..k ti dn tha edina gia na tous vlepw panta xamogelastous,me auth thn trelh k paranoikh diathesh pou kouvaloun orismenes stigmes..otan einai ontws xamogelastoi...to aksizoun..auto einai to mono sigouro...oi filoi einai anektimhtoi,elaxistoi k spanioi...tous metras sta daxtyla s...

Nomizw pws kapou edw prepei na valw teleia...paralogo dn einai na mn lew ola ta parapanw mprosta se allous k na kathomai edw,s' ena apsyxo kataskeuasma ths anthrwpinhs idiofyias (pou merikes fores strefetai enantion mas) k na ta grafw..les k tha lavw apanthsh h' kapoio neuma pou tha me kanei na niwsw omorfa wste na synexisw...parakseno??sigoura...telos pantwn..dn kserw pws na kleisw..mm..mallon m' ena..ta leme..dn m' aresei to antio..gt mporei na shmainei oti dn yparxei epistrofh..ahh na 'mai pali arxisa na lew diafora...TA LEME :-) (gia tyxon la8h...mm..ok dn kserw..apla mn dwsete shmasia h' kati tetoio)

P.S : NA MN KSEXASOUME NA ZHSOUME...(THN KATHE STIGMH)..H ZWH EINAI MIKRH..AS MN THN MIKRYNOYME K ALLO...

Omorfos kuklos

...otan les pws niw8eis(niw8eis..telos pantwn..megalh kouventa..) mperdemenos isws na einai o pio eukolos tropos na apofugeis mia duskolh katastash.Sunh8ws etsi eklamvanetai apo tous gurw sou k tis perissoteres fores isxuei..EIMAI MPERDEMENOS..!! Se fash..afhse me hsuxo..!Den 3erw ti mou sumvainei..!Den 8elw na vlepw an8rwpo..!Oi alloi einai anagkasmenoi na se "katalavoun"..Eisai mperdemenos..an einai dunaton na se feroun se akoma pio duskolh 8esh apo auth pou hdh eisai..:O Poso kako 8a htan auto ek merous tous..? Ma den mporoun na katalavoun oti den eisai kala kai na stamathsoun na se piezoun?..ts ts ts....

..xmm...Kaneis tous omws den skeftetai pws otan kapoios einai mperdemenos vrisketai anamesa se antikrouomenes skeyeis,se antikrouomenes sunh8eies,se antikrouomena sunais8hmata..Ola auta tou gennh8hkan apo e3w..Apo e3w den 8a prepei na paroun voh8eia gia na epilegei to "kalutero"..?Den 8a prepei kapoios,apo autous pou endiaferontai toulaxiston..h' prospoiountai pws to kanoun..estw gia tous tupous re gamwto..,na aplwsei to xeri kai na sou kanei pio 3eka8ara ta dedomena pou exeis sto kefali sou..? Isws na akougetai kapws piestiko na to kanei kapoios auto,idiaitera an to dillhma(h' kai parapanw..) ton afora...Ela omws pou se voh8aei kai se kanei na deis me megaluterh diaugeia ola osa se mperdeuoun kai se kanoun na niw8eis toso adunamos kai mikros kai tipotenios kai ana3ios zwhs..

...den exei vre8ei kanenas na me kanei na lusw tis mperdeyodouleies mou..:-) Yparxoun polloi(..polloi mou vghke na grayw arxika giati omologoumenws 8a htan polu euxaristo.. alla epeita skefthka pws den einai kai parapanw apo pente an8rwpoi..kai isws na lew kai pali pollous..alla den h8ela na alla3w to keimeno) etoimoi ma tis suzhthsoume,na tis analusoume,na tis 3egumnwsoume,na tis kanoume kommatakia..na mhn einai pia toso tromaktikes opws sunh8ws..na mporw na tis ekfrasw me logia kai etsi na xanoun ena kommati ths aiglhs tous,ths uperoyias tous,tou deous tous..THS PANTODYNAMIAS TOUS MESA STO KEFALI MOU..

..omws..Ti 8a ekana xwris autes..?:-/ Ti 8a ekana olh mera xwris tis mperdeyodouleies mou???...akrws tromaktiko twra pou to skeftomai...XA!!Gia des..oi mperdeyodouleies mporoun na ginoun polu tromaktikes otan den mporeis na tis ekfraseis endedumenes me to fovo tou agnwstou..h elleiyh mperdeyodouleiwn mou prokalei epishs tromo mono kai sthn idea..ara..?????..Diplo adie3odo..? Kai twra ti?..Pisw..tromos..!Mprosta..kai pali tromos..!tromos=trela..idia riza agaphtoi..xmm..eimaste oi pio polloi treloi loipon..as mou pei kapoios pws den exei niwsei tromo sth zwh tou..pws den exei niwsei pws 8a ton katapioun oi gurw tou..xwris emfanh logo..panta lan8anonta..alla toso diaxuto pantou..pou den xrhzei e3hghshs..

..mono se ena sumperasma mporw na odhgh8w..pote den 8a eisai apoluta sigouros gia kamia epilogh sth zwh sou..ta dillhmata sou de 8a fugoun pote..(kai eutuxws kata thn apoyh mou..)8a erxontai stigmes pou 8a trws apeirh frikh..!!!...alla meta 8a mporeis na sunexiseis na zeis ,estw mperdemenos, alla 8a ZEIS..8a niw8eis..8a ponas..8a xairesai..kai etsi 8a ektimas autes tis sugkritika liges stigmes xaras pou apolamavanoume oi perissoteroi sth zwh mas..kai ousiastika vrhkes ton tropo sou gia na luseis tis mperdeyodouleies kai ta dillhmata sou file..autoi pou sou fernoun thn pio pollh xara sth zwh sou einai autoi pou 8a anadeix8oun nikhtes sto telos tou dromou..kai idiaitera autoi pou de 8a prospa8hsoun idiaitera gia auto..alla 8a tous vgei aviasta..h' pali autoi pou 8a prospa8hsoun polu giati toso polu noiazontai gia sena..kainourgio dillhma....swsta?..:-)

P.S.eimai omologoumenws polu proud..!:-)
By Lady of the flowers

Prwth anarthsh kai i am proud!haha!ekana thn arxh s lew

Einai h prwth anarthsh se auto to blog kai ka8e mera lew "twra 8a thn grapsw".Alla twra phra thn apofash k elpizw na mhn to metaniwsw mexri na thn teleiwsw.Skeftomai oti einai ligo asteio pou,enw o logos pou phra authn thn prwtovoulia einai oti thelw enan xwro eleu8erhs ekfrashs,skeftomoun apo thn arxh "pw pw,kai twra ti prwtotupo na grapsw?"..Akuro kai xazo kai paralogo kai hli8io..Anyways, to point einai oti telika phra thn apofash k oti telika den grafw kati prwtotupo:P
Prin arxisw na grafw enas tupos me rwthse "ti kaneis?" t lew "kala..ftiaxnw ena blog..dld prospa8w" kai otan meta t eipa oti aplws h8ela na ekfrazomai h na moutzourwnw (klepsia apo allo blog <3 ) m leei "emo blog".Me nevriase kai gi auto arxisa na grafw..Kamia fora ,loipon, den xreiazetai na s laveis en8arrunsh apo kapoion g na 3ekinhseis kati..Arkei ena mikro ere8ismataki na s prokalesei ena ais8hma k na path8ei to koumpi ths mhxanhs p legetai prwtovoulia. So thnx mate..
Akouw placebo twra an k dn eimai egw p egrapsa sto music autou t blog "placebo" :P .. kai opws leei o filos molko "I'll describe the way I feel" edw..An k den kserw kata poso ginetai kapoios na ekfrasei auto p niw8ei..Akomh k to rhma "feel" nomizeis pws den to les,nomizeis pws aplws vgainei apo to sth8os s kateu8eian..xwris skepsh..xwris logo..xwris n exeis thn anagkh na sunexiseis th frash s e3hgwntas ti niw8eis..Einai kapws san na theleis na koita3eis h na akoumphseis kapoion kai aplws na katalavei..Nomizw pws kapou edw stamataei na einai logiko auto p grafw k na prepei na akoumphsw h na koita3w kapoion:/
4 7 2 3 9 8 5 - I gotta breathe to stay alive/and 1 4 2 9 7 8 - feels like I'm gonna suffocate.
Na tsekarete to 36 degrees..Someone will be proud of me:) hehe <3
Thn epomenh fora pou 8a eimai k ligotero psarwmenh 8a grapsw pio prwtotupa pragmata:P (kai an exei la8h h asunarthsies ftaiei p o,ti grafw dn to 3anadiavazw!)
Bye mates:)
By Bipolar